This is what she wrote to me today:
My feelings for you have strengthened when I see you with my other children,
I have the feeling that you belong to our family, even though so many years lie in between,
even when I'm talking about you, I'm talking about you as my daughter, and there is no difference between my other children.
I hope we have more contact.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
letting it sink in.
I saw friends tonight. One of them told me I look clear, accepted.
The other one told me I look bright, like I just got engaged, and the world is great and I'm excited to be in it.
They both said this to me after I told them I just went to France to see my birth mother. It was an amazing meeting, really everything I was hoping for. I went into it with great big expectations and my expectations were exceeded. We established a foundation for more to come.
Now that I'm back, I don't feel the urgency to be in constant communication.
I'm letting it all sink in.
The other one told me I look bright, like I just got engaged, and the world is great and I'm excited to be in it.
They both said this to me after I told them I just went to France to see my birth mother. It was an amazing meeting, really everything I was hoping for. I went into it with great big expectations and my expectations were exceeded. We established a foundation for more to come.
Now that I'm back, I don't feel the urgency to be in constant communication.
I'm letting it all sink in.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
inevitable depth
Loneliness refines you
sensitizes you
it is familiar to me
i'm almost used to it
it comes back around over and over again
its inevitable
and so being with it, accepting it when it comes
is a practice.
You end up deeper and higher.
sensitizes you
it is familiar to me
i'm almost used to it
it comes back around over and over again
its inevitable
and so being with it, accepting it when it comes
is a practice.
You end up deeper and higher.
Friday, January 8, 2010
i need to refine my vibration
I feel like I need to get something done.
I can almost taste the life that I want mine to transform into.
I need to share.
There's frustration in not getting it together to do what I'm here for.
I know that I am important in the world in the children I have created and am raising.
My sharing has mostly taken that specific route, with my kids.
I know I can really connect with people and convey something. I hear the water, I can breathe the mist...I need to jump into the flow.
I can almost taste the life that I want mine to transform into.
I need to share.
There's frustration in not getting it together to do what I'm here for.
I know that I am important in the world in the children I have created and am raising.
My sharing has mostly taken that specific route, with my kids.
I know I can really connect with people and convey something. I hear the water, I can breathe the mist...I need to jump into the flow.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
time is illusion
yoga class yesterday
my teacher talked about breath being a place where past present and future all exist at the same time
i moved through the asanas with that awareness
and felt opened and processed by it
i feel like a new version of me today
my teacher talked about breath being a place where past present and future all exist at the same time
i moved through the asanas with that awareness
and felt opened and processed by it
i feel like a new version of me today
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