possibilities openings connections

My weekend at Omega was full of connections.  I opened myself up to possibilities and they came pouring in.
I made the connection with Lynn McTaggart who wrote The Field and The Intention Experiment, and learned more about her amazing work and her projects, and am excited to be a part of them. I am so happy I made a personal connection with her, which is also related to adoption, and my search for more information to connect me to my origins.

My retreat weekend was deepened by my writing class assignment which I needed to complete while I was at Omega, which, (non-coincidentally) was based on the theme of identity.  On Saturday night I wrote for hours into the middle of the night, cozy in my cabin set within the fall foliage of upstate NY--I felt at home and serene, doing what I love and need to do.  Writing is such hard work for me.  I feel like my mind wrestles with the ideas I am working with in order to fit them together eloquently, and this is mixed with periods where I release and the sentences come spilling out almost without my control.  Writing is like a very physical experience for me; I talk out loud when I'm writing, I say the words I'm writing out loud, and it somehow affirms and organizes them for me.  I feel exhausted and complete when I'm done with a writing session.  I get that it is definitely my work in this lifetime, and I'm happy to be doing it (finally).

My meeting with Lynn was a preliminary step towards a future project I am contemplating regarding a sociological study of post-adoption outcomes within the specific population of adoptees who were the babies of Stanley Michelman's German/Austrian birthmother importing business.  There are so many potential implications to this, including my own personal understanding...

I didn't hit a brick wall, in fact I feel like I knocked the brick wall down and stepped over it onto the other side...I'm excited to find out what's next...