Yesterday I heard a fellow adult adoptee say something about living in fantasy being a common experience that we adoptees share. I've been thinking alot about this today; this is very me. My mind simultaneously lives in another realm alot of the time; I wonder how much this is connected to the fact that I gravitate mainly towards non-fiction media....? Its almost like I have enough imagination inside my head and I don't really have room for more.
Going to school and reading academic level material is FUN for me, and I feel my mind shifting gears and processing more. I am reading so much and listening to public radio and thinking so much that I am noticing how overwhelmed my mind feels on a regular basis. I then try to take a deep breath and stop thinking and let it settle a bit before I fire up again.
I went to the Rutgers annual adoption conference yesterday and my experience was so different from my expectations of what it would be like. I have so much to think about and so much to feel. I was overwhelmed by a catalog of emotions that kind of shut me down and I can see how it all went to my head and created a cluster of confusion. I had a long drive today and I just tried to let the thoughts and feelings separate a bit so they could form into some sort of pattern in which I can start to identity pieces and begin to make sense of them.
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