deep breath

ahhh, i can take a deep breath. i can write. or, at least i can give it a try and see what i create.
i felt the need to change up and create this because my previous project was becoming too personal and my name was attached. i know i tend to get confessional, and it just was not working with certain people checking in (namely, my therapists, possibly my son (?)). Not cool.

I need to write, I need to express myself, and I feel that the anonymity provided here will afford me the room to possibly go into places i wasn't going before.

so...

a quote: "Was it only by dreaming or writing that I could find out what I thought?" --Joan Didion
I read this today and was struck by it. I have the same question. I naturally move towards writing to understand myself and try to understand others and the world. I dream intensely, and notice that reflecting outwardly through speaking of them or writing of them almost always gives me insights i don't have if i keep my thoughts in my head.

i need to get my thoughts out of my head. thank you, reader, whoever you are, for reading them. knowing that someone out there will be reading this makes my thoughts feel more real.

i feel hopeful to have this new space. yeah!
any comments are appreciated and will be gratefully received.