clues

I emailed my biological sister in a desperate attempt to connect and gain information.  She's open! Yeah! She responded quickly and told me she would try to answer any questions I have.  She began giving me little clues about her (my) family, its very exciting.  And powerful. 
She told me she's sorry that her and her brother and sister got to grow up with our mother, but I didn't.  She also told me she wasn't the best mother, and they have all distanced themselves from her a bit because of her egocentricity and her unhappiness with life and judgmental-ness.  I'm just sitting with all of this.  It feels profound.  I am so much her.